baby joy

My little man has a twinkle in his eyes and the way he looks at me so lovingly, studying his momma's face is so endearing.  I love his big baby fists and how studies his hands.  I love how he captures my hand and uses it for teething purposes.  I love his big cheeks and how peacefully he sleeps.  I love how he smiles warmly at his big bro.  I love his dimpled chin.  I even love the rolls of fat on his thighs and the curls in his hair.  Can't forget the hairy shoulder when he was a newborn.  His first steps at 10 mos.

Be positive

It's hard sometimes to look at the positive but I believe there are angels on this earth that help put things into perspective.  Keep open to hear angels and let their light flow within you.  Brush off the negative and stand up straight.  Find humor and live everyday by embracing every moment with gratitude, blessings, and just as they are.

baby brother

I'm so glad I had another one.  Another sweet boy to our brood.  He is so precious and what surprises me is how different he is from my older one.  Just as special and just as unique but definitely different.  His smiles melt my heart and he has the most chubby cheeks.  I loved that he knew how to blow bubbles.  He looks at me lovingly and that is so rewarding.

Things that my little one says

So I knew this day would come, my preschooler announced that he will marry his mommy someday.  I said what about daddy?  He said daddy can be the 'butler'.  The lil bro to be can be the 'commissioner'.

Fall weekend

- happy hour with ex-coworkers: learned there are cities underground in Paris, the kitchen there with the swirly sink fixtures were so modern

- rummage sale: bumping elbows for jewelry and mad rush to get kids clothes

- photos at homestead farm and kids playing

- 6 mile run on Sunday with brunch then soccer again

yogaville trip report

where we are now versus where we want to be
live in the present moment and you will not be afraid of death
our mind can be filled with distortions or thoughts - assess if the bulk of these overtaking you from living in the moment

five needs: spiritual, emotional, social, intellectual, physical (hatha)
need balance in these needs, a constant coil of these needs
too much distortion or overtaking in one of these can lead to unhealthy imbalance

TSA: right thinking, speaking, and actions need to be in parallel with each other
gratitude, earnestness, awareness

follow the ten commandments but in all of us we now what is right and wrong

to really serve God, serve others

concentration - meditation - nirvana

breathing techniques - 3 step breathing
top of the legs - abs - lungs - collar bone
exhale fully, but not forcefully

sitting pose should feel weightless - half lotus tuck in foot - sitting pillow on bottom
adjust shoulder back and forth until between - hands on knees with thumb and forefinger touching
roll head back and forth until middle

vegan meals
kale
salad - beets, cucumber, yogurt sauce
tofu
beans
bread
honey
cereal
fresh fruit cutting board

hiking to Lotus Shrine
overlook
deer in forest

meditation blobs to Lemon

cold shower refreshing

charlottesville - mall
bang restaurant - humorism drink

spiritual roller coaster ride

we suffer, acknowledge it

embrace the suffering, let yourself feel the suffering (before stopping it so you can find the origin of it)

keep mindful intentions and awareness of the interconnected world

we are conditioned beings, we need to detach ourselves in reflection to understand our individual distortions

we can act a certain way but we are fooling ourselves when we do not lead from the heart

the heart plays tricks on us thus the need to reassess our actions through examining origins of suffering and meditation

we are only human, never perfect

live in the present, happiness is a fleeting moment.